TGIF!!!!!!!!!! I'm really looking forward to this day being done and having a glass of wine. Today has been incredibly busy and can't wait to go home and relax. I ended up calling in sick last night 45 min before my shift was supposed to start but was very anxious my entire ride home :-( So I haven't handed in my resignation letter yet, I will have to do that at my Sunday's shift. Last night was really bad night with Derwin. He ended up having 5 seizures and I didn't get any sleep bc I was so worried. Between work being so stressful and Derwin's constant seizures, I really don't know what to do. I need to relax and breath. Maybe I will go get a massage tonight after work :-)

Breakfast:
Skinny Latte with extra shot of espresso-40 cal
Strawberry Greek Yogurt-130 cal

Morning Break:
Mocha Almond Kashi Bar-140 cal

Lunch:
Sushi

Afternoon Snack:
Boston Cream Donut-250 cal

Dinner:
Salmon
Salad

Fri. March 30 - S

BREAKFAST: maple & brown sugar oatmeal, DanActive, water

SNACK: couple cheese and crackers, 1/2 c. fruit (strawberries, watermelon, cantaloupe), water

LUNCH: tuna sandwich with alfalfa, 12 almonds, 100 g. sugar snap peas, water

SNACK: 1 c. blackberries, 2 laughing cow cheese, water; hot chocolate

DINNER: 1-1/2 c. cheese tortellini in 4 cheese sauce, 2 pieces of garlic bread, water


Exercise: none :(

Thurs. March 29 - S

BREAKFAST: maple & brown sugar oatmeal, DanActive, water

SNACK: 12 carrots, 1 Tbsp. hummus, water, 1 piece of cheese

LUNCH: 4 oz. salt fish, 1/2 c. potatoes, 100 g. sugar snap peas, water; XL coffee (d.d.)

SNACK: 3 pieces of cheese, 3 ritz crackers, 1 c. blackberries, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

DINNER: shared goat cheese and garlic platter, entree size California spring salad with grilled chicken, apple crumble, water, vodka and cranberry (Milestones)


Exercise: none :(

OMG I'm finally quitting Food Basics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was having the same feels as yesterday and its not worth my stress and my health. I already feel so much better :-) Its going to suck a little because the extra income will not be coming in every week but, thats ok. In the long run everything will be ok and I will finally be able to spend some time with Derwin.

Breakfast:
Tassimo Skinny Latte with extra shot of espresso-40 cal
Blackberry Greek Yogurt-120 Cal
Small Banana-90 cal

Morning Break:
1 egg-70 cal
2 pcs. Peameal Bacon-100 cal

Lunch:
Italian Tuna with Peas-170 cal
Kashi Bar-140 Cal

Afternoon Break:
Cottage Cheese-90 Cal

Dinner:
TBA

Ruff morning into work. I had 2 anxiety/panick attacks on the subway probably from being exhausted. I haven't had them before and it was pretty scary. I am really going to have to adjust my FB schedule to maybe only working 3 days a week or none at all. I am not going to be able to work 2 weekday shifts back to back. Hopefully the rest of my day gets better and can't wait to workout at the gym today :-)

Breakfast:
Tassimo Reg Latte with extra shot of espresso-85
Blueberry Yogurt-120 cal
Small Banana-90 cal

Lunch:
Roast-110 cal

Afternoon Snack:
Cottage Cheese-90 cal
Italian Tuna with Peas-170 cal

Dinner:
Peameal Bacon and Eggs

Wed. March 28 - S

BREAKFAST: maple & brown sugar oatmeal, 1 hard-boiled egg, DanActive yogurt, water; coffee (d.d.)

LUNCH: tuna sandwich with alfalfa, 12 almonds, 100 g. sugar snap peas, water; tea with milk, 3 arrowroot cookies

SNACK: Greek Yogurt (140 cal), handful of brown rice chips, water; hot chocolate

DINNER: 1-1/2 c. fettuccini alfredo, 1 c. Caesar salad, 1/4 piece garlic bread, water; skinny latte


Exercise: none :(

Tues. March 27 - S

BREAKFAST: maple & brown sugar oatmeal, 1 samosa, DanActive yogurt, water

SNACK: 12 carrots, 1 tbsp. hummus, water

LUNCH: 1/2 c. brown rice, 3 oz. chicken, 1/2 c. Chinese broccoli, water; coffee (d.d.)

SNACK: maple latte (1/2 sweet, skim milk), ginger cookie (another rough day)

DINNER: 5 arrowroot cookies, 12 almonds, tea with milk


Exercise: none

It was a difficult morning to wake up. I am super exhausted from working last night and have to work again tonight. My boss comes back today, hopefully the day will be ok. I am super excited that I was finally able to buy the Tassimo Skinny Lattes WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!! It totally made my night and morning.

Breakfast:
Tassimo Skinny Latte with extra shot of espresso-40 cal
Blackberry Greek Yogurt-120 cal

Morning snack:
Kashi Bar-140 cal

Lunch:Crab Torta

Afternoon Snack:
Cottage Cheese-90 cal

Dinner:
Roast with a little rice
Double shot espresso non fat capuccino

Mon. March 26 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 samosa, maple & brown sugar oatmeal, DanActive, water

SNACK: 12 carrots, 1 tbsp. hummus, water

LUNCH: 1 c. Christmas pie, 3 oz. chicken, 1/2 c. chinese broccoli, water; tea with milk

SNACK: 1 c. blackberries, 2 laughing cow cheese, water; coffee with cream and sugar

DINNER: small spicy chicken sub with lots of veggies, water; double chocolate cookie (I know, it's Lent...bad day)

Sun. March 25 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, DanActiv, 1 piece garlic bread, 1 ginger cookie, 1 tart, water (**no idea, but I ate so much this morning and now I feel sick)

LUNCH: shower food: salad, bun with butter, chicken, roast with some gravy, potatoes, green beans, water, wine with ginger ale

DESSERT: 2 cookies, 1-1/2 pieces of cake, water, coffee (milk and sugar)

DINNER: little piece of chicken (2 oz.), 3 ginger cookies, 2 arrowroot, water; tea with milk; popcorn with butter (at theatre)


Exercise: 20 min. intense cardio (turbocharge FIRM)

Sat., March 24 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, 6 ginger cookies, danActive yogurt, water; tea with milk


LUNCH: 1-1/2 c. seafood mixture dad made (with potatoes and asparagus), 6 ginger cookies, water; tea with milk

SNACK: 12 brown rice crackers, tall caramel macchiato (1/2 sweet, skim milk)

DINNER: chicken fajitas (from Jack Astor's), strongbow, water

SNACK: small piece of garlic bread

Exercise: 20 min. cardio, 10 min. strength training, 10 min. abs (FIRM)

Fri., March 23 - S

BREAKFAST: Maple & Brown sugar oatmeal, danactive yogurt, water

SNACK: 1/2 c. cucumber, 1 tbsp. humus, 5 tortilla chips/triskits with some dip, water

LUNCH: tuna sandwich with alfalfa, 100 g. sugar snap peas, 12 almonds, water

SNACK: 8 strawberries, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

DINNER: fish and chips, small caesar salad, water; small french vanilla cappuccino (tims), 1/2 glass red wine


Exercise: none

Rant - S

I am so afraid! I feel so fat right now. I haven't been able to work out for so long, and with the issues with my tummy, I have no I idea when to get back on track. My stomach is FINALLY feeling a bit better so I should work out, but with all these things happening I seem to keep finding more excuses to NOT do what I should and I'm afraid...I am SOOOO afraid I'm going to gain my weight back. I worked so fucking hard to lose the weight that I did, and I still want to stay on track. I don't know how to do it any more. How can I find the time for ME to be able to do this? There just never seems to be enough time. I don't like feeling fat and I am so afraid of being that person again. HELP!!!!

Thurs. March 22 - S

BREAKFAST: maple and brown sugar oatmeal with a little milk, 1 egg (hard-boiled), DanActive yogurt, water

SNACK: 2 animal crackers, 8 carrots, 1 tbsp. humus, water

LUNCH: tuna sandwich with alfalfa, 12 almonds, 100 g. sugar snap peas, water; coffee (d.d.)

SNACK: 1 c. blackberries, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

DINNER: 1 c. fettucini alfredo, 2 chicken legs, water


Exercise: hoping to..and ended up with none :( This f'ing sucks!!!!

Breakfast:
Tassimo Latte with extra shot of espresso-90 cal
1 slice Cinnamon Bread-90 cal

Morning Break:
Blueberry Greek Yogurt-120 cal

I HATE FOOD BASICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was a continuation of Saturday :-( I was so close to quitting but unfortunately can't. I can't stand being so upset or stress out time this especially over a job that pays me MINIMUM WAGE!!!!!!! On a brighter not, I will be working out today after work, thank God. Hopefully, today isn't too hectic which I highly doubt since we are so short staffed.

Breakfast:
Tassimo Latte with extra shot of Espresso-90 Cal

Morning Break:
Strawberry Greek Yogurt-130 Cal

Lunch:
Chicken with Tzatziki and onions-140 cal
10 Multigrain Rice Crackers-90 cal

Dinner:Roast-130 cal
Green Beans
Salad

Breakfast:
Steeped tea with one milk and one splenda-10 cal
Blueberry Greek Yogurt-120 cal
Cheese Croissant-320 cal

Lunch:
2 pcs. Meatloaf
8 mini strawberries

Sunday

Breakfast:

Tassimo Cappuccino with extra shot espresso-70 cal

1 peach cookie

Lunch:

Highliner Pan Sear Tilapia-220 cal

1 tbsp. Tzatziki-20 cal

Dinner:

1 pc. Chicken cutlet with bbq sauce

4 asparagus stems

Salad with olive oil, salt and balsamic vinegar

Saturday

Breakfast:

Tassimo Cappuccino with extra shot espresso-70 cal

1 slice Cinnabon Bread-90 cal

Lunch:

6 pc. California roll

Afternoon Snack:

3 McNuggets

5 Fries

Dinner:

Glass of wine

1 pc. chicken cutlet

mushrooms

Late night snack:

mushrooms

OMG....it has been such a long morning so far and my day has barely started. I am definitely hoping that today is a better day then yesterday and looking forward to a nice glass of red wine tonight hehe.

Breakfast:
Blueberry Greek Yogurt-120 Cal
Soy Latte(1/2 Cup soy milk and espresso)-45 Cal

Morning Snack:
Bueno Chocolate Bar-240 Cal
Tea with Splenda-15 Cal

Lunch:
Tuna with light mayo and onions
10 multigrain crackers-90 cal

Afternoon Snack:
1/2 c. Egg Whites-60 Cal
2 tbsp. Antipasto-30 cal

Dinner:

Glass of wine

1pc. Highliner Pan Sear Salmon-170 cal

Salad with egg, pine nuts, slivered almonds, cheese, olive oil and balsamic vinegar

This morning has been such a hectic morning so far. It sucks that Derwin doesn't help with our lunches or breakfasts :-( Don't get me wrong, I enjoy doing it but, it stresses me out in the morning bc instead of him taking his time and taking a 30 min shower he could be helping so that it is not all left on me to do and gives me time to get ready. Then I got to work and spoke to a co-worker that I have been annoyed with since a comment she made on Monday and told her why I was annoyed with her. Lets just say she is very opinionated and thinks that she is always in the right. We got our taxes done and lets just say that working at FB is hurting me and I have to pay back quite a bit :-( Hopefully, my day gets better from here.

Breakfast:Blackberry Greek Yogurt-120 Cal
Soy Latte(1/2 Cup soy milk and espresso)-45 Cal

Morning Snack:1/2 cup. egg whites-60 cal
2 tbsp antipasto-30 cal

Lunch:1 c. salad1 tsp olive oil-40cal
1 tbsp balsamic vinegar-11 cal

Afternoon Snack:
2 Turkey Bites-100 cal
2 light laughing cow cheese-45 cal

Thurs. March 8 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 Tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water; peppermint tea with sugar

SNACK: 10 strawberries, cheese, watermelon, water

LUNCH: 4 oz. salt fish with garlic and lemon, 4 brussel sprouts, water; chocolate milk

SNACK: med. maple latte (skim milk, 1/2 sweet)

DINNER: 1 w.w. English muffin, 2 poached eggs, 1/4 c. beans, water; 15 veggie crisps, french vanilla cappuccino

Wed. March 7 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water; peppermint tea with sugar

SNACK: banana, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

LUNCH: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 hard boiled egg, 2 clementines, chocolate milk, water

SNACK: Greek Yogurt (120 cal), water

DINNER: 3 c. caesar salad with 3 oz. tuna, water; tea, chocolate milk

Exercise: none :(

Tues. March 6 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water; peppermint tea

SNACK: 2 clementines, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

LUNCH: 2/3 c. wedding ball soup, 2 oz. veal, 1/2 c. potato, 1/4 c. chinese spinach, water; peppermint tea with sugar

SNACK: 1 chocolate chip cookie (sorry...it was a tough day), Greek yogurt (120 cal), water

DINNER: 1 can Campbell's chicken noodle soup, 8 crackers, 2 pieces jerky, water; cappuccino, 1 pkg. biscotti (100 cal)

Mon. March 5 - S

BREAKFAST: w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water; peppermint tea with sugar

SNACK: 1/2 c. grapes, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

LUNCH: 2/3 c. stir fried rice, 3 oz. chicken Parmesan, water

SNACK: Greek yogurt (130 cal), water

DINNER: 2 c. wedding ball soup, 3 crackers, handful of veggie crisps, 1 piece of pork jerky, water; tea with milk

Sun. March 4 - S

BREAKFAST: 10 mint M&Ms, w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, activia, water

SNACK: 10 smarties, 2 pieces pork jerkey, 2 cookies, water (whatever I could find that would quelch hunger before lunch/dinner)

DINNER: 3/4 c. fried rice, 3 oz. chicken Parmesan, 1 c. salad (vinegar & oil dressing), 1 glass red wine, water; latte, piece of chocolate cake

SNACK: chocolate shake, water

I know, not the healthiest of days, but it was an odd day - along with my 6th month with an amazing man. We couldn't end the night without our signature chocolate shake :)

Sat. March 3 - S

So, I weighed myself this morning and was please to see that I'm down 2 lbs to my 163lb weight. Like I've mentioned before, I think I will need to focus primarily on working out more regularly (aiming first for 5 days a week). I have to keep psyching myself up to do it, along with deciding how to schedule it in. It was nice that I was able to do one workout over at Andrew's while I was waiting to cook dinner. Maybe I can make that more of a habit. Still, I do need to make use of my Curves membership (after all, I AM still paying for it). Anyhoo, onto food.

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1/2 c. cooked beans, Activia, water

SNACK: 1/2 c. grapes, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

LUNCH: Caesar salad, chicken fajitas @ Jack Astors, water

SNACK: tea with milk; hot chocolate, water

DINNER: cheese burger (with tomato, lettuce, ketchup, mustard), caesar salad, water; London fog latte (1/2 sweet, skim milk)


Exercise: none...

Fri. March 2 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water

SNACK: 8 strawberries, 4 crackers with 4 pieces of cheese, water

LUNCH: tuna sandwich, 12 almonds, 2 clementines, 1 c. chocolate milk, water

SNACK: Greek yogurt (120 cal), water

DINNER: 3/4 c. fettucini alfredo, 4 oz. salmon, 1 c. caesar salad, water; tea, hot chocolate


Exercise: 25 min. cardio (FIRM)

Thurs. March 1 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water; peppermint tea (2 sugars)

SNACK: 1/2 c. grapes, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

LUNCH: tuna sandwich on w.w. bread, 12 almonds, 1 c. chocolate milk, water

SNACK: Greek yogurt (130 cal), water

DINNER: 2 c. rice, chicken teriyaki, water; coffee (d.d.), tea with milk; 12 veggie sticks


Exercise: none :(

Wed. Feb 29 - S

BREAKFAST: 1 w.w. English muffin, 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1 tsp. jam, Activia, water; peppermint tea (2 sugars)

LUNCH: tuna sandwich, 12 almonds, water; 1 c. chocolate milk

SNACK: 8 large strawberries, 2 laughing cow cheese, water

DINNER: 4 oz. salmon, 1/2 c. rice, 1/2 c. green beans, 1 c. caesar salad, water; tea with milk


Exercise: none (again too tired)